Gratitude Journal Day 46: Saturday, 11/14/2020

Why keep a Gratitude Journal at all? (This is the saaaaaame intro for every Gratitude Journal entry. It’s here for the newbies to the journey.)

I try to start everyday with a Grateful heart. *duck face* Potna, I ain’t lying. You can check my IG accounts Queen/King. I get a lil raunchy on the Multiple_Sclerosis_Outlaw but I’m calmer, gentle with allthingsonelove. On both, I start my day sharing Gratitudes, stories of Gratitude and anything related to being Grateful. I’m dead ass serious about my Gratitudes because it keeps me present and accountable for my own energy. I recognize and appreciate the actions, words and energy of others intending me good. By starting my day with Gratitude, I have less MS pain, MS symptoms and MS depression because I’m actively pushing my thoughts towards a positive direction of Gratitude. My relationships with others are stronger because my Grateful ass notices what others do for me, to me, WITH me. *bows* I could go on and on and on and on about the benefits of being purposefully grateful buuuuuut… *whispers* Pssst, you know I wrote about it…

link to How I Know Gratitude Works!

Why I chose THIS to start my day…

Work, life, people and I GOTTA remember those Pins and quotes I save about not faulting others for their growth. 😑 Real talk SON. I can’t fault them. YOU can’t fault them.  Don’t even TRY to fault life, GAWD, karma, NONE of that. *wagging finger* WE know better. At work, 2 colonizers were cracking jokes back and forth about who would be the best slave driver. 😞 In front of us, the employees, MOST of whom are people of color. 😑 What. The. FUCK? The two “company leaders” traded barbs long enough that others in the class were all messaging each other about it, a foreign student made the comment, “Wow. America is so racist.” ✊🏾 I juggled being quiet, towing the line and just being a “model” employee buuuuuut…. I couldn’t. I said something to the “company leaders” and one apologized. Was it authentic? I guess. Was it sincere? Nope BUT I’m NOT faulting either for their brash, feelings of comfortability and crappy people skills. They’re in a company, mostly white, surrounded by white leaders that share their white experiences, live in a community of whites, DEEP in the headquarters of colonizers. They’re gonna say SOME-thing racist, prejudiced, gender biased, basically insensitive and fucked up. YUP, it’s 2020 so you should be further along in your growth and maturity but there’s NO way, I sacrifice MY energy/inner G to usher you along. I said something so at least THEY know better, were told better. I explained my feelings to classmates & colleagues as well. Ain’t NOBODY finna drive us and we damn sho NOT “slaves”. (This AIN’T Antebellum 🤤😤) Neither meant their reference in a PERSONAL way; dem mugs just got too comfortable in THEIR environment and said wack shit. *shrugs*  Adjust your perspective, rid the distractions and focus on FORWARD.

3.) Essential Oils & Diffusers 💨 I came strong with 3 drops of lavender. These folks ain’t bout to stress me into symptoms or interrupt my weekend. I even set my diffuser so the “smoke” drifted over the webcam and gave my appearance of a PLAYA from the Himalayas. *files nails* Grateful I have strategies & tools for selfcare.

2.) Kids’ debit cards 💳💳 NEXT stage of leaving the country begins. Kids have debit cards for allowances, pay days, chore charts, Gratitude Journals, everything. The plan is to develop, initiate, guide their actions & energy towards homeschooling, respect and chores. They can use their money to order from Amazon, buy the Roblox add-ons and whatever else. Damn right I’m grateful to have reached this POINT!

1.) I NEEDED a day or two to self-care baaaaaad than a MUG. 👑🖤💪🏾 AND I’m taking it now. Saturday 3am, I’m up with BIG plans to properly meditate first, no clocks, timers, none of that. I’m going to properly yoga AND workout. (Seriously because my spasms are UGLY since Wednesday night.) BLACK sage today to send some thoughts to the higher powers. I’m napping today. 😪😴 My goal is to drink 64oz of water, read at least a few chapters and work on my blog, brand, business, books last. I’m grateful I CAN.

#Gratitude #Grateful #Perspective #Goals #Grind #Passion #Purpose #Passion #AllAboutYou #MindOverReality BUT put some #selfcare on top!

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